Christmas Diary 2009

FATE

A “Para-Gram” by Paramahansa Yogonanda

There is no such thing as fate; you make your own destiny. God has given you independence to shut out His power or let it in. You have more strength to overcome difficulties than you have troubles to overcome. You can remedy your mistakes because God has given you reason and will. First you must make up your mind; then hold your will steadily to your purpose until it is completed. Discipline yourself to develop your sleeping spiritual powers. Claim your divinity. Unite your consciousness with God, and receive blessings direct from His hand.

Christmas has always been some sort of a battle for me. For some reason,  every time December comes each year, there’s this button in my head that gets switched on making my hormones go haywire. Perhaps, I haven’t been practicing enough willpower and I just let it take control over me. Or maybe, it’s just the usual pressure that the Yuletide Season brings. Studies have proven over the years that Christmas is not just the happiest season of the year but it is the most stressful too. Many people even commit suicide at this time of the year than any other. How ironic, isn’t it? 

Anyway, everything we feel is energy and it attracts everything that is like it. Positive energy attracts more positive things; negative energy attracts more negative things. It is no wonder that during this time, my parents had a huge fight, my hubby and sis almost got into a car accident, I’ve been feeling more and more depressed, and so on and so forth. THIS HAS GOT TO STOP! Like what the Paragram said, “There is no such thing as fate; you make your own destiny.” Just because past Christmases have always been a struggle for me, it doesn’t mean that this year has got to be one too. God has given me the power and more than enough strength to overcome these difficulties. Like what Peter keeps telling me, past is past and where we are now is full of blessings and wonderful surprises that I have to continue acknowledging and being grateful for. And he’s right. Of course, he is. I taught him that before. And I must remember to keep on practicing these things that I’ve learned from The Secret. I must admit, taking the first step to changing paradigms and feelings from sad to happy is always difficult at first. But once I’ve conditioned my mind and body, then everything else will follow and I’ll be aligned once again. Like love, happiness is a commitment. It’s a decision that is coupled with action and desired results will then follow. 

I can never thank my sister enough. Abba has always been my angel… I’ve told her time and again that I may have been born four years ahead of her but between the two of us, she has always been the stronger and wiser and I admire her so much. I look up to her that I claim she is the “big brother/sister  I actually never had. She  is caring and sensitive but can be firm and strong-willed when needed. Anyway, she taught me this song that is soooo apt for the both of us. Like PINK LIFE (which she also taught me before), this song has become my 2nd all-time most favorite and is now the theme song of both our lives. We are celebrating Christmas and welcoming the New Year with blank pages and more excitement, happiness and gratitude for all the great things that are about to unfold.

Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten

I am unwritten,
Can’t read my mind
I’m undefined
I’m just beginning
The pen’s in my hand
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten, yeah

Oh, oh

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah yeah
We’ve been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can’t live that way oh, oh

This realization didn’t come to me overnight. It took three days of spending time with my family to be back on my happy feet again. ^_^

 December 22-23, 2009

My sister and I were at home alone. We decided to stop working and start enjoying the holidays. Good thing we have very kind bosses who let us work whenever we want. ^_^ We set up our little party at the balcony with our Shakers Mudslide, cigs and some chips and just talked the night away… ^_^

When Peter arrived from work at around 2 a.m., we transfered downstairs and continued with our bonding session. 

December 23-24, 2009

 This was the night I fell in love with my sister’s stuff: My sister showed me her Janty e-cigarette which she bought online in Cebu about a year ago. It was friggin’ Php5k! My goodness! ^_^

We had her iTouch on. This was the night she let me listen and understand the lyrics of Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield and I simply fell in love with it together with the gadget itself and the mini-X portable speakers.  She’s a very good “hacker” that’s why she was able to download audiobooks, songs and movies for free! We listened to Ellen Degeneres, Harry Potter and The Secret audiobooks and it was so much fun!

 If I didn’t know any better, I would think that we have huge speakers set up in the house. That little thing was so loud, in a beautiful, dolby-digital-surround-system  kind of way. I want!!!  

Uhm.. yeah.. we partied til morning. Teehee.     

December 24-25, 2009

The rest of my family came over except for my Dad. At least, my Mom and Dad were no longer mad at each other. My Dad just couldn’t leave the house and the dogs unattended. 

Again, we celebrated until Christmas morning. ^_^

     I hope you had a meaningful Christmas too. I’m looking forward to a brand new year.   

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!