It was the day of Vina’s wedding, June 28, 2008. She asked us to be at the venue early that day for make-up and pictorial. I usually don’t like attending weddings coz it can become stressful, tiring and simply a waste of MY time. Peter counseled me about this numerous times until he finally told me something that I can accept. He said that the reason why I hate attending trivial events such as weddings is because it takes control out of my hands. I am a control freak. It’s one of my psychological illnesses aside from my bipolar disorder (which I healed years ago). I like to have control of my time, my stuff, my activities. And when I am invited to a wedding, it totally pisses me off since it’s all about them, their motif, their time, their whatever. And I hate it. But because this is one of my bestfriends we’re talking about, then I’m all for it. Well… ok, not all. You see, I want to make her happy while at the same time, make myself happy too. This is the Samantha (of Sex and the City) version of myself which only the closest of my friends know about me. After all, one of my hidden mantras is to love myself first more than others. That’s the only way I can give love in the first place. Coz how can I give when I’m all empty, right?
Anyway, moving on, that Saturday morning, in order for me to have some semblance of control over MY weekend, I decided to leave the house extra early so Peter and I can have some alone time. I loved our Friday brunch so much that I thought of spending breakfast together in Tagaytay, somewhere we’ve never dined in before.
TOOTSIE’s… this well architectured restaurant is located just a few walk from Taalena’s entrance. It doesn’t offer Taal’s view but it does have a roof deck overlooking the field and the mountains. They offer delicious meals for quite a hefty price (the huge bowl of salad was Php 245) but i’s all worth it. It has grapes, caramelized cashew nuts and greens…just what I wanted that morning.
I savored the time I spent with Peter that morning. I know that when we get to the resort, most of my time will probably be spent with Vina and our other friends. So I pat myself on the back for being a little bit selfish early that day. In my book, being with Peter is always time well spent. I just hope that we can have more moments like this the future. I’m always missing him so terribly the last couple of weeks. Sigh.