I’m Virtually Free…

…For ten minutes or so, at least I was. Two weeks ago, I resigned from my  virtual PA work…yes I did. So courageous of me huh? That’s still Php50+k a month (in cash with no tax cuts whatsoever) down the drain and I didn’t really care. I know I’d always have money. After all, my mantra goes ” “I am a carefree millionaire! All good things are coming to me. Money is easy and comes frequently.”  I just got so burnt out and stressed with work. Thanks to Smart Bro which contributed a lot to my decision.. I mean in order to have a stable and clear VOIP connection, I need to have a cable internet access or DSL internet connection. Unfortunately, these services are not yet available in our area. And becuase I know that having a stable internet connection is important to my boss,  I decided to end his sufferening by terminating myself. You see, a lot of the employees in the company were wondering why I got hired in the first place since they know that my boss hates Smart Bro users in particular. And true enough, the moment I became his right hand and applicants (both here and abroad) would go through me, I did find out that a lot of the Filipinos  aspiring to join the company got turned down just because they are Smart Bro users. This proved to be a heavy burden to carry, one that would always hover heavily at the back of my head and it stressed me little by little until I can’t breathe no more. The day that I resigned, I was hyperventilating! My connection got so worse that I was afraid I’d get laid off. So, I did the next best thing and resigned. I just love myself so much that I know I didn’t need that kind of stress and I know there’ll be better things for me to do and accomplish. It’s just too bad because for the first time since my Etelecare days in 2001, I did love my job and I was not only good at it… I was great! I guess, my boss recognized my value and within the hour of my resignation, he called my cellphone! I didn’t know what to say. I was feeling all sorts of emotions — sad,  ashamed, stressed, pitiful… For the first time, I cried over the cellphone as I was talking to a Texan CEO! And he was just listening to all my internet woes and before I knew it, he was already suggesting ways on how we can work around the problem like perhaps, I can do all my online work in an internet cafe during day time here in the Philippines and at night, we can do our meetings over my cellphone and he will pay for long distance. This really touched me a lot. I guess all my hard work did pay off. So the following day, the moment that my connection got better, I logged in again. But this time, without the stress and pressure of having a perfect internet connection. And on those moments that Smart Bro would give up on me, instead of panicking and having a heart attack like I used to, now  I’d just relax on my lazy boy, call their tech support  and wait for my connection to clear. What a heavy load lifted off of me! Looking back, it’s just so amazing how THE SECRET works. I value myself a lot these days — my welfare, my sense of happiness and security, my sanity. And because I put a lot of value and trust  in myself,  I also attract things and people who value me and give me what I need and want, which  basically comes down to peace of mind and financial security. So thank you, God! Thank you, universe! Now, minus all the worries on my internet connection, I was already able to establish a routine for myself. I no longer wake up with a heavy feeling in my chest and so I am able to exercise. And this is while watching some of my favorite shows on TV — Date my Mom, Tyra Banks Show, Project Runway, America’s Next Top Model, etc… Then I’d take a bath, have dinner by the balcony and log in for work. In the morning, after my shift, I’d wake up Peter and we’d have wonderful breakfast together as we catch up on each other’s lives. It’s a good life by the way. It’s starting to fill me up. And the reason I say this is because now, I am slowly starting to think of my family (which I rarely did before). It’s gonna be Mother’s Day next weekend. Maybe I should bring them all to La Union. Or maybe, finally visit Manila Ocean Park… Hmmm… Well, whatever I decide to do, life is sweet and will always be.