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End of My Emotional Roller Coaster…

July 27, 2007

On Popsy's last day, I was still riding my personal emotional roller coaster. Peter & I had a short talk that afternoon at home while Popsy was enjoying his last few hours  at the Casino. Peter picked me up at home so we can both pick up Pops from Sofitel and spend some quality time with him on his last day here. I finally obliged but because I was such a wreck then, I was crying all the way to the hotel, for no particular reason at all. It felt like I was a teenager again and crying with no apparent reason was the most normal (even if it's so tiring) thing for me to do. (Yeah… I've always been a crybaby since I was born.) I only calmed down when 96.3 WRock started playing songs that I like and I just hugged Peter while he was driving. I just wanted to assure him that he wasn't the problem and I was not blaming him for anything. I just had to cry and he had to let me be without him trying too hard to save me from  whatever negative state I was in. He was like that before… he had this messianic tendency of saving everyone from all their woes & troubles. When he was not successful, he blamed himself. But since we got together, he learned, ever so slowly, that this is not the case all the time. Sometimes, he just has to let me be. I'm a half-guy" I guess. Coz just like what the book Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus  says, when men are are troubled, they go to their caves. I know I'm not a man but I do the same thing. Didn't I exhibit  introverted tendencies the whole time I was in my emo roller coaster?  Weird, huh? Well, I am weird, what's new? Hehehe.

 

Anyway,Popsy's vacation here lasted for three weeks but it didn't seem enough. And since it was his last day last Sunday, we allowed him to play one last time at the Casino while Peter & I also made up for lost time. So together (Peter & I), we spent a while taking lots of pictures and enjoying the view (at Sofitel Philippine Plaza).

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