Random Thoughts

 I’ve been feeling quite down these last couple of days. Aside from writing down my thoughts and feelings, I’ve also tried singing my heart out in the hopes of healing my own wounds. Singing is cathartic for me. And hopefully, I get to release all these negative emotions I’ve been having lately. Rest assured I’m doing everything I can to make myself ok again so that I can go back to my old happy self. I’m counting that tomorow will be a happy day for me. I’m quite excited to share with you the next leg of our VisMin trip… But for now, please bear with me.

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written at around 12:00 midnight, May 7, 2007

I can’t sleep. I started taking fat burner pills again to control my weight. Liz thinks that I’ll never be fat (which I appreciate btw) but I know better. My mom is fat and so is every woman in our family. I know I’ll soon be headed in that direction too if I don’t take drastic measures to curb my widening waistline. Before, I used Ripped Fuel despite the headaches and palpitations it caused me. But today, I am using a different one. It’s Xenadrine. The lady at the shop said that it’s much stronger than Ripped. Plus I can say that it doesn’t have the usual bad effects Ripped had on me before. I just feel so awake right now without the headaches and palpitations. I really hope this works. We’ll see. I’ll do my best to maintain my exercise regimen everytime I come home from work. I’ll try to do it longer like say, an hour instead of 20 minutes (talk about laziness, hehehe). Or, it’ll be much better if Peter and I push thru with the boxing plan I am so looking forward to. I wonder when that will be.

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I have this tendency to keep things to myself especially when I am  sad. The only one who really knows the real me is this blog. I’m not so sure if anyone really reads what I write here except for some of my friends. I’m not even sure if my own husband reads me regularly the way he does the other bloggers. (HE’S BESIDE ME RIGHT NOW ARGUING THAT HE DOES READ ME REGULARLY. LIKE I SAID, THESE ARE JUST MY RANDOM THOUGHTS & feelings.) Oh well, it’s ok. I’ve always been a loner anyway. I was actually surprised when the Psychological test I took last March proved me to be an extravert (as spelled by Carl Jung, otherwise, it’s spelled as extrovert) when all the while I thought I was an introvert. Of course, my friends and family would definitely disagree! They know me to be so fun-loving and carefree and not this loner, homebody type. It’s also not so obvious with my nude pics plastered all over our house and on this blog. But I mean, deep down inside me I’d really rather be alone than with someone. Weird, huh? Yeah,  I sometimes surprise myself too.

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I have this odd feeling of totally not understanding why people want to get hitched. I know I’m in no position to understand these people because I am married. But really, if Peter isn’t in my life right now, I mean, if he didn’t become my boyfriend in the first place, I believe I’d still be able to live a happy  life. I know I won’t be the type to crave for male company or to have someone to hold at night. And sexually speaking, I can please myself quite well. I’ve learned to do that at a very early age and I have high standards for orgasm so I don’t really need men to satisfy me in that department (It’s only Peter who was able to exceed my standards, hence, I married him). I told him this before and he feels the same way. But then, there is no way of proving this now since we are what we are right now. Hmmm…

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Friends + Alcohol + BMR = HAPPINESS

Surf’s Up Again Folks!

 The Beach Babes of La Union!

I’m imitating Pennylane’s style in capturing photos, hehe.

So off we went to La Union on the last weekend of April. We had been planning this for several weeks now and had already been postponed a couple of times too due to various reasons whether personal, financial or otherwise. I was just glad that it still pushed thru even if some backed out at the last minute like Ode ( my guy friend at work who was tasked to finish a major project before Monday) and Gab of Parokya ni Edgar (Peter’s cousin). He and Peter got so wasted the previous night and was afraid he wouldn’t be able to wake up. True enough, I think he didn’t. Oh well, maybe next time. 

Soaking up the afternoon sun… my purple bodyboard can’t wait to try the waves! 

Anyway, this trip had some very stressful kinks, I’m telling you… First was when people started backing out. You see, everytime we go to La Union, we make sure that there is at least 5 of us so we can split the gas cost which usually amounts to P3000.00 roundtrip. Also, the most affordable airconditioned room at San Juan Surf Resort cost P950 per night for two persons.  Without friends to share these costs with, the trip alone can be a tremendous financial burden for budget travelers like us. Second, the lady at the front desk of San Juan Surf Resort thought we’d be coming over on a Friday instead of  Saturday so we almost didn’t get any room because everything was already booked! Third, when Peter went to Gab’s place the previous night for a little drinking session with the boys, his  driver’s license which he left at the subdivision’s guard post was taken by someone else. So he had a terrible fight with the guard then went on the trouble of searching for the guy who took his license. I was thinking, maybe this was a sign that we shouldn’t push thru with the trip. I was really getting stressed big time! I think I wanted to cry but I had to remain strong since it’s just a surfing trip after all. Finally, when he found the guy who took his license at around 4 am when we were supposed to be on the road already, Peter can’t remember where he placed the deposit slip for our room. We already paid P900 via BPI and without that slip, we’d be paying the resort twice as much! Gosh! Good thing I found it in one of his jeans’ pockets. Whew! So off we went to pick up our friends at the usual spot and after around 7-8 ours of travel (it took us longer this time coz we left early morning instead of early dawn so traffic was a bit slow already), we finally reached La Union.

La Union… I missed you!!!

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Roller Coaster Holiday

Our holiday started around lunch time when I suddenly craved for Kopi Bun of Kopi Roti. So Peter and I  drove the stretch of Tomas Morato and found a branch there. But since it was past 12 noon already, we needed something more filling and fit for lunch. After buying two pieces of Kopi Bun, we had them taken out and scouted the vicinity.

 Kopi Roti, Tomas Morato branch …. they sell the best coffee bun in the world for only P35.00 each!

There was Finio at its right side. We checked it out but the steep price of the dishes they serve prevented me from eating there. Then there was Reyes Barbeque at its left side. The menu looked affordable and palatable so I thought we hit our jackpot. But the moment we went in, the smell of barbeque immediately stuck to my hair and clothes so I opted to go out and look for food somewhere else. Finally, across the road is Sizzling Stop.

At day time, it looks like a classy canteen but at night, this resto can look really cozy and wild… 

We checked it out. It’s more spacious than the first two restaurants and the food looked more palatable and more affordable too. So that’s where we had our lunch. From the look of the food when it came, I knew we made the right choice. Plus, they sell 10 bottles of beers for only P199! I was thinking this would be a good place for the boys to get drunk and wasted, hehehe.

Can’t wait to eat! 

Sizzling Bangus @ P75.00                                Sizzling Kaldereta @ P85.00   

After lunch, we weren’t really in the mood to do anything else so we went back home. Before my hormones got the better of me, I did a little concert thing. The last song I sang before breaking down (again) seemed appropriate for my emotional outbursts. I’m just so sorry I had to abandon Peter the whole afternoon coz I wanted to be alone in our room. If not, I felt that I’d just get into a fight with him (which I actually did later on…).     

Don’t Cry Out Loud…

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Labor Day Blues

 May 1, almost noon, in my room

We planned to have breakfast at Eastwood, buy Spiderman tickets and catch its early screening, have lunch with our friends and window shop…maybe even buy a couple of new bikinis. But as it turned out, my friends backed out last minute due to some emergencies and we weren’t able to wake up early. I think this could be a good thing coz our bodies are still recuperating from the lack of sleep during our surfing trip to La Union last weekend and my eyes are still sore from all the crying I did last night. And now, Peter didn’t want to catch his most awaited movie anymore coz he’s afraid we’d be competing for seats with A LOT OF PEOPLE.

But i think it’s not yet too late to make something out of this holiday. So we’re heading out of the house in a few. Hopefully, we get to do something fun and holiday-worthy.  I’ll tell you all about it when we get back.

For now, let me give you a sneak preview of our surfing trip last weekend. And yes, I haven’t forgotten about the next leg of our VisMin  trip. All these will be posted in the next couple of days. So til then…

 I was trying to not get swallowed by the waves….