Reminiscing GMA 7’s Te Amo with Jennifer Sevilla

 Listening to:   TELL ME WHERE IT HURTS by Kathy Trocolli

So far, we’ve been discussing about personal values in MDP. Our facilitator told us that for a leader to become effective, he/she must know him/herself well and must be grounded on his/her values. Then she asked us this question: “If you have 1 year to live, what would you rather be doing?” You all know me pretty well through my blog. You know I love to travel and explore places, you know I love to party, you can see that I live a pretty comfy and fun life. But when this question was asked, my eyes welled a bit and there was only one thing that instantly popped in my mind — ACTING.

It doesn’t pay well, the hours are very grueling and the training could be so humiliating at times. But in front of the camera or up there on stage, that’s where and when I felt the most alive. This thought made me sad. Because I know that right now, I am not that brave enough to follow my dreams. There are bills to pay, insurances to cover, things to accomplish, other priorities that have to be taken care of. And so I brushed that thought away. Being depressed about it wouldn’t help me right now. But it was difficult. Even now, the thought of living this comfortable life, even if I am grateful about it, haunts me and brings me all sorts of undesirable emotions. So I try to move on and focus on the things that have to be done.

I’m on vacation today. Peter is trying his very best to rest and get well. I was starting to pack upstairs for our Palawan trip tomorrow. Then I went downstairs to search the net if Puerto Princesa has a night life so I would know which clothes to pack (apparently they have none so I’ll just see for myself tomorrow night when we get there). Then I thought maybe I could post more of my travelogues for you guys, especially those who are looking for places to visit this summer. Unfortunately, I seem to have  lost the travel pics I needed and instead found these on my files — my TV moments with Te Amo Maging Sino Ka Man of GMA7. I played as Jennifer Sevilla’s abusive boss. It was a semi-regular role which I did twice a week. It was one of, if not THE glorious moments of my life. After doing local theater acting on the side, bit roles on TV and commercials, I was chosen among the hundreds of theator actors to play this role on a semi-regular basis at that! WE even underwent an exciting workshop for several days with one of the best directors in local soap. Sigh, those were the days. And now, instead of brushing off this feeling of regret for having stopped this thing that I loved the most in the world, allow me to dwell on it for a while, if only to feel more whole once again, even for just a moment…

PS: I recorded this at home when I caught my scenes on TV one night. I used our very first digital camera then, our Nikon. Unfortunately, that camera couldn’t record audio, only video. So pls. bear with the scenes.