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December 24, 2006

 

Ever since I was a kid, Christmas has always been my favorite time of the year…UNTIL NOW. It’s not that I hate it, but I don’t enjoy it as much as before. Now, I dodge parties like Irene’s dinner party and our office Admin. party, I’m always tired and feeling so stressed out, and I actually got sick the day they announced that I passed the second phase of the Management Development Program in the GSIS (from 1000 examinees, down to top 200 and now down to 60 candidates). Plus, I definitely don’t want to go home and be with my folks (but I have to!) and I’m feeling resentful and angry about all those bad things that my family and friends did to me. I’m being sucked in my own hell hole right now and I’m drowning in guilt, pain and sorrow. I didn’t want to be like this. I was not like this. I used to be such a saint and now I’m such a scrooge. If I was pure Catholic, I’d think I’m being possessed by the devil (or maybe I am, I don’t really know anymore). Coz who in their right minds would think of breaking up with the people they love and cherish? But I do feel that. Sometimes I’d think I wanna leave Peter, my family, my friends, live in the mountains and just be by myself. That afternoon they announced I’m in the top 60, I wanted to resign! I am insane! I know, I know. But this time, much more so.

Anyway, to hide my insanities, I TRIED to have some fun. Last Friday night, Ninette, Peachie and I went to A Veneto’s for dinner. That was some girl bonding we had and I really felt glad. Ninette is always such a darling with her stories and Peachie is always such a charm when it comes to her psychoanalyses and advices. Dinner ended at around 10:30pm. We got a cab for Ninette and Peachie & I headed home and bonded some more. It’s always uplifting to talk to Peach. I know we’re of the same age, but it’s like having an ATE as crazy as I am. 

   

Soon, dear Jowi followed and joined our little house party (well, not really a party coz there were no more food & drinks, hehe). We remisnisced about my so-called crush (hahaha!), gave some gifts and I left the two of them catching up while I went upstairs to satisfy my obsessesive-compulsive (OC) tendencies. It was already dawn when we said goodbye and  got ready for bed.

Come Saturday, Peachie went home early and Peter & I did our errands — a visit to my orthodontist, a visit to Banawe to buy a roof rack for  the Revo  and  a visit to the  surf shop to get our  surfboard  which I named  Didi (coz it’s color  DILAW).  Woohoo!!!  Peter was ecstatic and I was sooo happy!  At last, we now have OUR OWN!  Although our plan of going to Zambales tomorrow is still hanging coz part of me just wants to stay home and rest. Anyway, now that we have our own surfboard, we can just go to Zambales or La Union any time we want to. Yahoo!!!!

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