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Unexpected Moment

December 17, 2006

Naturally, I woke up late on Saturday after partying til dawn with Brownman at Xaymaca (see my previous entry below). I found myself scrambling for my phone, hoping to read some messages from friends. True enough, Irene texted me earlier that morning inviting me to join her and Jem in Quezon City Circle as they host a party for urban poor and disabled kids. I was with Jem last night but she didn’t mention it to me. Oh, maybe because I forgot to tell her that our family day in the office got cancelled. Anyway…

   

The text message was sent around 8:45 am and I thought, perhaps Peter and I can catch up and help out a bit. So we went and Irene introduced us to some of their kids. I particularly met this very behaved 8-month old baby girl named Mary Denise. She recently had an upper lip and rectum surgery and I noticed that she has 6 fingers on her right hand and a disfigured left ear. I wondered why she was born that way. Did her mom do drugs during the pregnancy? I really wondered why… I cannot imagine how it would feel like having a child like her. But the moment I held her in my arms, her eyes sparkled (or so it seemed) and I felt a certain kind of glow deep inside (which I don’t wanna overthink about)… She held on tight and I felt weird… something I never felt before and I don’t kow how to call it (again, I don’t want to over analyze the feeling).  We talked to her mom for a while before returning Mary Denise to her.

After the party, I got to meet some of Irene’s friends (John, Bang and Sarah). We chatted on our way to the car as Irene bought us some drinks. I told them that if I’m not busy on weekends, maybe I can help out some more on occassions like this, at least, to put some semblance of balance in my life. After all, I used to be such a saint when I was much younger. I know I still have it in me, to be good, generous and kind. I was just jaded by certain events in my family that pushed my patience to the limit that I had to go become selfish for a while.

I hope being with those kids changed me a bit, even if only subconsciously for now. Maybe through Irene, God is telling me that I have so much to offer. He is telling me that after everything, I AM STILL LUCKY. So, I promised the girls that when I’m not busy, I’d help out some more — another reason I can think of  to wish that I NOT PASS the 2nd phase of our MDP exam in the office. Or else, I might not have the extra time to help them out with the kids as well, or do our assisting  stint at Bilibid Prison, as I’ll be required to attend a 6-month long training program for would-be managers and supervisors. Darn. Well, it’s in God’s hands now. I can only pray so much. He knows what’s in my heart. Let His will be done. The same way he let me experience this unexpected moment. :-)

P.S. I was reading another person’s blog and chanced upon her wish list composed of ten things. And I realized, those things she’s wishing for, I already have them, in bulk even. Like what Christians say in their vernacular “siksik, liglig at umaapaw”. I AM REALLY LUCKY.  :-)


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that’s why i never forget to thank God at the end of each day that i was born normal, that i have a loving family, i have complete limbs, complete body parts, complete five senses, and that i’m still alive! :)

yes, i’m always grateful for everything! :D

Posted by ralph at December 17, 2006, 5:34 pm

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