Sunsets and Sunrises, A Farewell to 2006

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  Only One by BIG MOUNTAIN

It feels only yesterday when I was typing a new entry on my friendster blog about welcoming year 2006. A year has almost passed and here I am again posting some words about the year that was and the year that will be.

2006 has been a fortunate year for me. I think I’ve gained a lot and I’ve given a lot as well…

I made a lot of new friends who turned out to be great individuals. Each of them continues to inspire me in their own unique ways… helping me  become a better person by conquering the demons in my head and making the most of what I’ve got. 

I am also thankful for the material wealth that has poured into our lives, helping me  aide my family financially, even just a bit, and making me appreciate my life more especially when I feel so lost and confused.

To Papa, who has continued to support us and love us… my deepest appreciation. We love you so much and I can only wish that I can give you what you’d need and want when that time comes. 

Most especially, I thank Peter for loving me unconditionally  (yes, he does). You just don’t know how bitchy and difficult I can be. Yet, he’s still here for me, loving me more and more each passing day. I don’t know how he does it, but I thank God everyday for making him the best person that he is. I can only hope he also feels how much I love him too even if sometimes I don’t show it…

And to my family, I know they love me and I love them too. They can be difficult,yes. But I guess that’s part of THE PLAN — God’s plan, challenging me to be a better daughter, a better person. So fo that, I thank them.

Last but not the least, I thank God, for the opportunities he gave me — opportunities to see the world in his eyes, even just a small part of it. The travels we made all these years will always be in my heart. Every new person we met, every beach we conquered, every sea we swam in, every mountain we climbed, every sunset and sunrise we saw… they will always remain a blessing to me, for they make me conquer myself, my fears, my sorrows and tribulations.

And now that another year is coming which I feel will be a bit more difficult and stressful, I hope that those memories of new places will be enough for me to stay strong for the things I needed to do this coming new year. I wish for these difficult things to not happen. I will really try to prevent them from materializing. But if in case God has another plan for me, then so be it.

I dedicate this entry to the sunsets and sunrises of the past two years we’ve been traveling. I hope to see more of you. I really do… 

Happy New Year!

 Boracay

 San Juan, La Union

 Pundaquit, Zambales

 Davao

Alegre Resort, Sogod, Cebu 

Mindoro

Manila Bay

Guimaras

Bais Bay, Dumaguete

Danao, Bohol

Cocobeach, Puerto Galera

Sunken Cemetery, Camiguin

Bantayan Island, Cebu

Tagaytay

White Island, Camiguin

White Beach, Puerto Galera

Subic Bay, Zambales

Nasugbu, Batangas

Mabua Beach, Surigao del Norte

Hundred islands, Pangasinan

Patapat Bridge, Pagudpud

Pagsanjan, Laguna

 Balicasag Island, Bohol

Bolinao Island, Pangasinan

Post Christmas Affair

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Here’s a short entry before I continue watching Lost…

Peter and I met up with Mer last night while doing our pre-new year groceries at SM Supermarket. It’s been forever (I think!) since I last saw my bestfriend and I’ve been having doubts as to whether or not to continue with our relationship. I guess I was just PMSing at that time. She was the one I was referring to in my previous blog when I said I felt like I wanted to break up with someone. Sorry Mer, I didn’t tell you. I just felt unneeded and unwanted, I guess. Especially when you were going through some rough times and I had no idea what it was until I read about the breakup on your blog. Or perhaps, I was just being a moody brat. Teehee. But I’m taking it all back now coz I had a great time with you and I deeply feel that the fire between us is still burning. Hehehe. Thanks for spending the night with us. Know that you’re always welcome and we are here for you… Oh, the music above is for you by the way.

We actually opened our gifts outside SM Megamall’s Supermarket. Hahaha! 

Anyway, that night, Peter and I gave our gifts which I am happy to say she loved. Likewise,  I so loved the Paris painting she gave us. No, not a picture of Paris Hilton. PARIS as in Le Paris. Yes, the capital of France. We had this agreement back in highschool that by the time we’re 30 (May 18, 2008 to be exact), both of us would go to Paris. 15 years ago, we thought we’d be rich by now and could just afford to go anywhere in the world we want to. But I’m afraid to say that it’s not that simple. Sigh. Ergo, this painting. I guess that’s enough for now. It would go really well if I put it on the wall beside my Papemelroti bookshelf.

Someday, we’d be having coffee here…in Paris. 

That’s it for now. Time to “get lost” again.

Do Not Disturb

Now that the Christmas rush is over, I revert back to my old, comfy, lazy self. Having a new TV in our bedroom is a big bonus too. I don’t have to wait for Peter to finish watching his daily doses of cartoons, jeopardy and discovery channel stuff. I can now just easily go upstairs, relax and watch a movie to my liking. But since I’ve been watching addicting TV series, Peter has no choice but to join me in bed to watch:

Remember when we were in Davao last month and we finished watching Season 1? We were sooo bitin! So the moment Manang DVD in the office showed me Season 2, as incomplete as it was (it only has 10 episodes since it’s still currently showing in the US), I still bought it. As usual, the experience was heart pounding and mind boggling. I felt like I wanted to buy a PSP version of it. Good thing Peter said that THERE IS a PSP game patterned after Prison Break. I’ll definitely buy  it as soon as I either finish Harry Potter game or get bored with it, which ever comes first. Teehee.

Here in Season 2, I got to know each character much better. Each of them has his own sob story to tell and it just makes it more difficult for me to see them sufferring while on the lose. And Tea Bag, man!!! He’s such a genius! If he’s not the sociopath guy that he is, I might even begin to like him. Harhar!

Of course, after Episode 10, Peter and I were both screaming “Nooooooo!” on top of our lungs. So anyone of you out there who has a copy of the next few episodes, please lend it to us. we’re going crazy of suspense here! 

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I’m not yet done with 4400. It’s not as fast-paced (I think) as the first season that’s why I’m having a hard time finishing  the second. Here, Isabel (the baby who was believed to be conceived by an alien father) emerges to be a very powerful female being as the rest of the 4400 grows stronger with their respective powers and capabilities. There are definitely some twists and turns in the first few episodes I’ve seen and I am hoping to get more intrigued as I continue watching this TV series.

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OH MY GOD!!!! This is the reason why I haven’t been finishing 4400 first. It’s coz the moment I saw the first scene, I got hooked already! It’s sooo damn frightening that I get palpitations every time I watch it! But I can’t stop! I want to know what kind of monster is attacking them, what other mysteries the island has to offer and why is there a call for help, playing in the loop for the past sixteen years?!?! Maybe they are not alone on the island…

For travelers like us, this definitely is one scary experience to endure. I feel like cancelling our Palawan trip for next year already! Talk about suspension of disbelief! I even dream about this flick at night! Whew! So anyway, enough blogging for now. “Gotta get LOST”.

Christmas Awakening

Yesterday, I felt like the lady character in Paolo Coelho’s book, The Devil and Miss Prym. The devil and the angel were both influencing me to do the bad and the good thing. Most of the time, I felt like just staying in the dark, sulking in negativity and eating a lot of emo crap. But I guess, the good always triumphs coz as late as 8pm last night, I just suddenly decided to go to my folks to spend Christmas with them. I released all expectations, forgave past hurts and just went with the flow of tradition.  All of a sudden, I felt light. It’s amazing!

We arrived at my parents’ house in San Mateo Rizal   at around 10:30 p.m. I felt their longing and delight the moment I saw them. My mom kissed and hugged me and I almost choked in suppressed tears. They really thought  we’d never come home this Christmas. And then… as they say, the rest is history.

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Hmmm…Merry Christmas?

Ever since I was a kid, Christmas has always been my favorite time of the year…UNTIL NOW. It’s not that I hate it, but I don’t enjoy it as much as before. Now, I dodge parties like Irene’s dinner party and our office Admin. party, I’m always tired and feeling so stressed out, and I actually got sick the day they announced that I passed the second phase of the Management Development Program in the GSIS (from 1000 examinees, down to top 200 and now down to 60 candidates). Plus, I definitely don’t want to go home and be with my folks (but I have to!) and I’m feeling resentful and angry about all those bad things that my family and friends did to me. I’m being sucked in my own hell hole right now and I’m drowning in guilt, pain and sorrow. I didn’t want to be like this. I was not like this. I used to be such a saint and now I’m such a scrooge. If I was pure Catholic, I’d think I’m being possessed by the devil (or maybe I am, I don’t really know anymore). Coz who in their right minds would think of breaking up with the people they love and cherish? But I do feel that. Sometimes I’d think I wanna leave Peter, my family, my friends, live in the mountains and just be by myself. That afternoon they announced I’m in the top 60, I wanted to resign! I am insane! I know, I know. But this time, much more so.

Anyway, to hide my insanities, I TRIED to have some fun. Last Friday night, Ninette, Peachie and I went to A Veneto’s for dinner. That was some girl bonding we had and I really felt glad. Ninette is always such a darling with her stories and Peachie is always such a charm when it comes to her psychoanalyses and advices. Dinner ended at around 10:30pm. We got a cab for Ninette and Peachie & I headed home and bonded some more. It’s always uplifting to talk to Peach. I know we’re of the same age, but it’s like having an ATE as crazy as I am. 

Come Saturday, Peachie went home early and Peter & I did our errands — a visit to my orthodontist, a visit to Banawe to buy a roof rack for  the Revo  and  a visit to the  surf shop to get our  surfboard  which I named  Didi (coz it’s color  DILAW).  Woohoo!!!  Peter was ecstatic and I was sooo happy!  At last, we now have OUR OWN!  Although our plan of going to Zambales tomorrow is still hanging coz part of me just wants to stay home and rest. Anyway, now that we have our own surfboard, we can just go to Zambales or La Union any time we want to. Yahoo!!!!

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