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Being A Little Too Sensitive

October 31, 2006

I’ve been feeling quite sensitive lately. This usually happens when it’s that time of the month and true enough, it is (I’m on my last day now, thank God!). Due to this abnormal state I’m in, I suddenly felt the need to drop a text or two to some of my friends I haven’t been with. Either because I felt something not so good was up or because I felt neglected and unwanted.


IRENE

It was Irene’s birthday last October 28, Saturday, same day as our halloween party. I expected her not to come since she was going to celebrate her birthday in her own fun way. To my surprise, when I asked her how her birthday went, all her plans didn’t push thru at all. I felt so sad for her. I wanted to make it all up, if only to make her feel happy and special because SHE IS SPECIAL to me, being one of my bestfriends.



Our schedules seldom match coz I work 8-5pm,M-F, while she works double shifts at a call center. But I really wanted to see her and make her feel loved. So that same day, together with Peter and Vina, we came to Eastwood and met up with her. She chose Cheescake, etc. and that’s where we dined while catching up with one another.


 

Irene’s story is hers to tell. I just wanted to make her feel that she is never alone, that she should never be afraid to show her true felings, that we will always support her in every decision she makes and that I do love her and miss her a lot.

It was nice to see her smile that night. Her issues are still far from being resolved but we believe that she will be able to overcome them.

MER

We’ve been friends for so long now, since highschool in fact and sometimes, I feel like we’re taking each other for granted. Like Irene, she wasn’t able to come to my Halloween party. She had a toothache  and her mom wanted her to visit. But I felt like there’s more to it than that. Days before the party, I thought the reason why she wouldn’t be able to come was because her boyfriend would arrive on the same day. It was only through her blog that I found out about the toothache and that her bf still hasn’t arrived. No matter how hard I try to brush it off, I still felt hurt, same way that I do every time I think about the surprise  birthday party Peter  did for me last February at Mandarin that she missed too.  I know I’m just being too sensitive  but the Mer I know right now is just… different. She started being this way when she got back together with her bf after a MAJOR fight. I don’t know why but something just changed. I don’t know if it’s for the better but she’s just not the same to me anymore. I know that as much as I can, I try to bring her into MY LIFE. She said she is having money troubles but we can always hang out without spending a single cent.  Sorry if you read this  but  I don’t like the way you are acting right now. I know you’re missing your boyfriend so much  and perhaps this is the way you’re coping. I just don’t understand it and maybe you should do something about it (or not…. whatever!)

OFFICE FRIENDS

Ate Rose mentioned the other day that Dodgie was asking for us to have lunch outside the office. I told her I’m not sure yet but that they should push it through and I’ll do my best to be there. The day has come and Ate Rose was on sick leave. I waited for Dodgie to text or call me but nothing. I texted Ninette if they will push through with the plan but apparently, she was at the hospital that morning with her parents. I asked Vina if she’d like to go out for lunch but she couldn’t. I understand all their reasons but I was just a bit hurt. Anyway, I tried to let it all go.


That same morning, Odhe, Jun and lloyd invited me to join them for dinner. As usual, I said I wasn’t sure. Aside from the fact that I might feel left out coz I’m an outsider, meaning, not from their department, I was also very sleepy and tired coz I stayed out so late the previous night with Irene , Vina and Peachie I though I was ready to hit the sack any time. 


Amazingly, considering that it was Nov. 1 the next day, our president allowed us all to prepare early for all saints’ day so we were off from work by 3pm. Since Ma’am Glo’s carpool won’t be leaving until 4:30pm, I decided to go out with the boys and immediately headed to Danny’s Grill along Disodado Macapagal Highway.  Mgr. Mei was happy to see me. Liza, Caren and Farah were there too! And to my pleasure, the boys rented a huge dining room with videoke!!! Now I ws sure to have real fun!!! And I did!

 

Art, Lloyd and Jun                        Odhe and Mgr. Mei

I never really thought I could have a blast since I was still feeling all sorts of emotions thinking about my other friends. It’s just nice to be invited and appreciated by people who I thought didn’t give me much consideration. Who would’ve thought?! As expected, I also got so drunk with 2 cosmopolitans and 3 shots of Absolut  (all for free!) that Peter had to pick me up by 8pm. Teehee.

 

Lloyd and Fara giving it their best shot!

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