I had a post about my fears of having to do a colonoscopy. For some reason, while I was posting my article on Guimaras, it got deleted. I’m not sure if that’s a good sign, meaning, that I should let it go and that I’m not going to die any time soon. I still have Saturday to look forward to for the final verdict. Oh God, I hope the results are negative. I know I’ve said so many times before that I am ready to die. After all, I’ve done so much in this lifetime, most of which were the things I’ve dreamt of when I was a child — finished college, got a job, helped my family, married the love of my life, made great friends, acquired beautiful stuff, gone to exotic and romantic spots, done TV and theater acting, sang on stage, took risks, etc. I can say I’ve lived a full life. But like I said in my deleted post, I AM ONLY HUMAN. I still crave for more. They’re not that spectacular but they’re important to me nonetheless. Like seeing my brother graduate and hopefully get a good job, building a house in Surigao where my folks can retire, traveling the world, having a kid or two (after I get over all of my angsts), growing old with Peter, meeting more eccentric and great personalities, writing a book and singing in a band. I’d also like to go bunjee jumping, sky diving and even go to the moon via American Express like what Jem told me (I can dream can’t I?). I’m still young, I deserve to live more and contribute more to society. So please God, let me? But IT IS HIS WILL. And HIS will be done. As the cliche goes, we are all ready to die the moment we were born. So I might as well just make the most out of it. God bless us all.